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Mid-season replacement... Well, after a lengthy (almost 2 and a half month) hiatus, we're back!!We're back with a few new christmas gifts ("Ultimate Matrix" box set comes to mind...), a few new nervous thoughts about my new job, a few more new reassuring thoughts about my new job, and a few more people in the world who I realized I never say enough nice things to. I'm good at writing things down that I like - people, movies, nature events, jokes... even political matters (what?!)... but I have a hard time saying them for some reason. It's as if interacting with other people compels me to be negative all the time. I've been going around for years thinking I was "improving" in the negativity department - I have long been known as "Oscar the Grouch" (named by a neighbor of my parents, my mom loves to remind me) by my family, due to my shockingly consistent ability to put a negative spin on any given situation - purposefully or not, it's definitely something I do. I can do it with a bizarre look (I am the master of the nasty look - it's almos unconscious at this point... and you can imagine how that improves my social status), I can do it with an unkind word, I can do it simply with the absolute lack of any lilting joy in a conversation. Half the time I think my (family mostly) think I am being mean, and the other half I think they are figuring me to be faking it. It's strange to think that I've been walking around thinking I was improving in this department, and to suddenly realize that despite my perceived improvement, I am an infinite length from success here - the hare to my positive goal's tortoise. Anyway, so that brings me to the point here - my New Year's Resolution is to try to turn over a new leaf here and start being much more positive. I'm tired of having a problem with everything, I'm tired of seeing the nasty side of things - I'm tired of having an unconscious need to downplay when someone else is being funny - it's a stupid knee-jerk reaction that is keeping me from being myself all the time, and that's just dang annoying. So don't expect Ward Cleaver or anything, but I am going to make a concerted effort to start playing up the good side of things, and telling people I enjoy their company, rather than just thinking it and keeping all the warm fuzzies to myself. So to you, readers of my blog - I extend this challenge... keep me in line. Or at least remind me about my blog some time. Or maybe just let me know you saw it so I can use the guilt of putting this out on the line to my advantage, and keep me up, buoyed by my crushing fear of letting someone down. (ok, so maybe that's taking it a little too far :) anyhow, Viva la revolucion! Keep up the good work, friends. -Rob Posted by sarcophage @ 10:41:00 AM Add or check out a |
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